I don’t know why or how I love you I don’t even know if I really do, but what I do know is that me and you will never work. But despite my obvious knowledge of that I can’t seem to stay away, no matter how hard I try to tell myself its hopeless, no matter how much I try and say I don’t need you I lay awake at night thinking of you, only of you. I stare at my ceiling wishing you were with me, wishing you would just walk through my door. I can’t help it, I don’t even think apart of me wants to because this little voice in my head keeps telling me not to give up, it keeps saying she will come around but I don’t think so any more. I don’t think this little voice is right. I don’t know if I should give up. Every time I see him with you it reminds me how futile my endeavors are, it shows me that you’re happy, but what about my happiness. I don’t want to take it away from you but I know he doesn’t touch you like he should he doesn’t look at you like he should. But you’re happy and that’s all that’s supposed to matter, right? I hate myself for this I really do but I only want you I just want you.